Happiness Is Not A Myth

It's crazy how I can finish writing something yesterday only for it to be challenged by so many different angles this Sunday morning.  Yesterday I posted about how happiness is basically a myth, and that God does not say we will be happy.  Today I was challenged by listening to the message from Pastor Andy Stanley via podcasts, and by my own pastor Ben Scroggs on the peace and joy that God wants us to have.

Truthfully, I have been pretty numb this past week.  Not feeling any hurt from the pending divorce and custody issues with my son, nor feeling any anger, nor anything for that matter.  Just numb.  Ever been there?  I think perhaps my mind and body just sort of shut down; dulling itself for a time before it became too much for me. 

I truly want God's peace to reign in my heart and I think that is what will make me happy.  I do stand by what I stated on yesterday's blog that I don't believe happiness will be found in sexual pleasures or seeking a relationship with another woman.  I also stand by the fact that I am damaged when it comes to intimate relationships but I know I can be good friend.  I do care for others; and because of how I grew up and all that I faced as a child, my heart continues to go out to those who suffered like I did.  I have a heart for caring, and I want to serve others.

My brother-from-another-mother John Scroggs and I were talking today during after-church lunch.  He was talking about tithing and how it does not just involve tithing money but also are time and gifts.  We talked about our gift of writing.  I love to write.  I aspire to be an author someday.  I want to write a fantasy fiction novel, then write some devotional books, and then just teach writing.  However, I want to also share my thoughts through the written word to others so it will help them.

Life is not meant to be lived alone.  We are to help one another; uplift each other.  As iron sharpens iron so too we should sharpen one another as the verse in Proverbs states.  That is what I hope my writings does for others.  That is what would make me happy and bring me peace.

I have to constantly resist the urge to hate my soon-to-be-ex-wife.  I resist by praying for her whenever the urge to be angry comes at me.  That is what will bring me peace is by praying for her and seeing God work in her as He has been doing in me. 

I guess happiness is not a myth.  It's just not as cut and dry as some people make it out to be.